Winter Journal by Paul Auster
Holt • $26 • ISBN 9780805095531
on sale August 21, 2012
Thirty years after his breakthrough debut, the memoir The Invention of Solitude, Paul Auster returns to the medium in Winter Journal.
With the hindsight of Didion, the narrative elegance of Nabokov and the mesmerizing writing for which he himself is known, Auster (now 65) steps into what he calls “the winter of [his] life” by looking back on a lifetime. He shares his memories and the fleeting moments of his body—places it has been, things it has felt (both wonderful and terrible)—through threaded vignettes constructed of languorous sentences that feel much like memory itself. Each fragment careens toward death, a boat against the current.
Auster writes as “you,” a device which could feel like an assault were it not for the accomplished writer behind it. At times, the “you” seems removed, peering at his former self in a distant way, as when he recounts the hours immediately following his mother’s death: “No tears, no howls of anguish, no grief—just a vague sense of horror growing inside you.” At other times, the “you” seems to be surprised and thrilled all over again, such as when he discovers his own penis at age five: “. . . how fitting that you should have a miniature fireman’s helmet emblazoned on your person, on the very part of your body, moreover, that looks like and functions as a hose.” And always, the “you” is hypnosis to trick you, reader, into remembering a life that isn’t your own.
It’s a fast read, never waning to nostalgia, that will move you to chew the cud of your own mortality and (somehow) still find time to disappear into your own memories.
Enjoy the opening:
You think it will never happen to you, that it cannot happen to you, that you are the only person in the world to whom none of these things will ever happen, and then, one by one, they all begin to happen to you, in the same way they happen to everyone else.
Your bare feet on the cold floor as you climb out of bed and walk to the window. You are six years old. Outside, snow is falling, and the branches of the trees in the backyard are turning white.
Speak now before it is too late, and then hope to go on speaking until there is nothing more to be said. Time is running out, after all. Perhaps it is just as well to put aside your stories for now and try to examine what it has felt like to live inside this body from the first day you can remember being alive until this one. A catalogue of sensory data. What one might call a phenomenology of breathing.
Will you keep an eye out for Auster’s new memoir in August?